July has always been my favorite month. So many wonderful things seem to happen in July - and wonderful things did happen.

It was probably the most unforgettable July to date. So many things I thought to know, so many things I thought were wonderful were challenged or uncovered as an illusion. Like stepping into an enormous room of fun house mirrors and not knowing what's real, not real, and how real/not real. Thinking you're taking a step forward, but soon realizing that the floor, seemingly so strong, begins to crumble behind you.

But I always think the greatest human experience is to feel and to acknowledge how you feel. And sometimes I don't have words for how I feel - like there aren't a proper combination of letters to grasp that - but silence colors it so well, the feelings merging/dispersing into each other like liquids deep somewhere inside.

August is new. August is refuge. August is meeting myself again in the morning, in the afternoon, and in the evening and saying "hello" to myself and "how is your day going?"

August is saying "hello" to your friends and family, and "why haven't I seen you in so long?"

August is accepting small kindness' from a stranger, who offer to pay your items at the grocery store, or lend an encouraging glance, and being re-introduced to all the kindnesses around you. And watching all the striving we do individually, but also seeing the bumps of "keep going" all around.

You can soar high. You can go higher. You don't have to stay there. You can go higher. You can go higher.

You can go higher.

Rose Water

Music is magic.

First Aid

The most effective way to stop bleeding from a wound is to apply direct pressure. Use a dressing and your gloved hand to apply firm and direct pressure to the injured area. Hold pressure until the bleeding stops.


"Love is only a word"

Life is too short for us to keep important words, for example, ‘I love you’, locked in our hearts.
But do not always expect to hear the same words back. We love because we need to love. Otherwise, love loses all meaning and the sun ceases to shine.
A rose dreams of enjoying the company of bees, but none appears. The sun asks:
‘Aren’t you tired of waiting?’
‘Yes,’ answers the rose, ‘but if I close my petals, I will wither and die.’
And yet, even when Love does not appear, we remain open to its presence. Sometimes, when loneliness seems about to crush everything, the only way to resist is to keep on loving.
Our one true choice is to plunge into the mystery of that uncontrollable force.
Then we discover, when we go home, that someone was there waiting for us, looking for the same thing we were looking for and experiencing the same anxieties and longings.
Because love is like the water that is transformed into a cloud: it’s lifted up into the heavens, where it can see everything from a distance, aware that, one day, it will have to return to earth.
Because love is like the cloud that is transformed into rain: it is drawn down to the earth, where it waters the fields.
Love is only a word, until we decide to let it possess us with all its force.
Love is only a word, until someone arrives to give it meaning.
Don’t give up. Remember, it’s always the last key on the keyring that opens the door.

Paulo Coelho


and do thou, 
O Prince of the heavenly hosts, 
by the power of God, 
thrust into hell Satan, 
and all the evil spirits, 
who prowl about the world 
seeking the ruin of souls. 


"The truth is that the more intimately you know someone, the more clearly you'll see their flaws. That's just the way it is. You might think you love someone until you see the way they act when they're out of money or under pressure or hungry, for goodness' sake. Love is something different. Love is choosing to serve someone and be with someone in spite of their filthy heart. Love is patient and kind, love is deliberate. Love is hard. Love is pain and sacrifice, it's seeing the darkness in another person and defying the impulse to jump ship."

Bye, bye Emi San

We love you! Thank you for being so kind hearted and fun. See you in the future <3 p="">
Interestingly enough, work has been rather pleasant these last few weeks. Talk about a turn of events. My current boss is down to earth, listens closely when I have a problem whether it be about work or life in general. And while I know she must get overwhelmed like everyone else, she doesn't let it rule her. Inspiration! So it's a kind of nice change actually... and I am sure there are many other nice changes to come.


What. is. life. ♥

Dream Life

Michael, when will you ever let me live? When will you pull yourself together all on your own, get up, make a world you are excited to live in, to breathe in. Hello? Don't fall asleep again.. I'm reaching, I'm clapping, I'm dancing, but my eyelids are closing


Where earth and heaven kiss, and angels lose their way 

double think 3.6.17

I begin looking around and observing what everyone is wearing - jeans that are too long, sneaker brands I've never heard of. A brief realization begins - maybe life is okay to be lived "that way", in a way that your next paycheck doesn't need to lust after a y-3 bag.  That you can live a perfectly happy life without certain things. They bob as a song they like begins to play. As I grab the pole further in the car, I notice the lady who has a seat - and a gucci coat - wearing an expression that somehow seems so unappealing.

Midnight daylight

There are so many things I'd like to tell you -

about how strange life turns out -

and about so many things you don't think you'll be able to handle -

that you do.

-The world's not merely what we see-

Life Inspo